The Big Question

Who am I?

The big question – yep, I asked it…

At 38, 4 kids, the loss of a baby, a 15-year marriage that ended in divorce, a car accident that took what little life I had left and completely flipped me upside down, I feel like have been through enough changes in my life to ask the big question. Don’t take this the wrong way – I am not complaining I am simply stating the truth. I mean seriously, does anyone really know the answer to this question or is everyone like me, taking each moment at a time, trying to learn and grow from each obstacle put in one’s path?

I feel like a salmon trying to swim upstream against the raging waters and forces of nature. A friend once referred to me as a Honey Bajer – then showed me the video of 4 or 5 Lions trying to tear the little guy apart but they couldn’t get their teeth through its skin. They finally gave up and the Honey Bajer went on his marry little way.

To answer first portion of this question is pretty easy – Hi, my name is Tiffany, I’m a daughter, a sister, a mom of 4. I am an office manager at a fencing company, and I’m also a business owner (Tip Central) on the side. I enjoy reading and running. What I am talking about is the clarity in which my existence makes sense and I am doing the things that make me happy in my life.

Another can of worms….

I’m happy, I just want pure fulfillment in my life!

I have experinced devastation in my life, heartbreak and sadness – isn’t it time for me to have complete peace and know exactly who I am, what I like and what I want. Because, I am so not the person, I was even 2 years ago. I want to embrace everything in life that makes me who I am and find new things to love!

So, over the next few months I am challenging myself to do just that. I want to do things I have never done before. I want to embrace the things that I have always desired to do, but never had the courage. I want to breakout, live fully, and embrace who I am!

What are some things that I know about me? I am honest and compassionate, I wear my heart on my sleeve which gets me in trouble sometimes, I am loyal to the bone. I work as hard as I can, then give a little more – 110% all the way! I struggle to surrender, especially when I believe in something. I love my life, even with all the lows, I wouldn’t trade it because it is mine. It has made me stronger. I laugh hard and loud, because to laugh is to heal the hurt that mocks me. I love endlessly – without shame. I choose to be happy, so that I can mock the pain that is hidden deep within me.

Life doesn’t have to make sense – we just have to make the best of it! Like a wildflower standing in the desert, it found a way to survive. I am a survivor. I will push, climb, tackle… whatever it takes! #NeverGiveUp

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Taking each moment a step at a time, trusting the the one above to get me through every chapter in this life.

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  1. Tiffany, I never realized we had so much in common with our lives! I totally understand everything you are saying. I have went through a lot of the things you have went through. I sympathize with you Lady. As old as I am I still struggle with life and probably always will.

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